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2009-09-28T03:02:00.001-07:00

as i said , my blog is super dead . it has been days and no one is here to tag my blog .
D
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damn .
LOL .
anyways , eoy .
super dead .
expected to fail my chem paper .
can't understand the last few chapters of the exams .
and the 10 years series comes only on friday .
how great is that ? -.-

shall end here .
bye .

2009-09-26T01:18:00.000-07:00

boo !
i'm blogging again .
i've only got fifteen minutes though .

end of year exams is only in a weeks time .
i'm pretty sure i'm gonna flunk most of it .
cuz idk most of the things we're studying .
then i'm gonna die cuz if i flunk it , :
1. i'll prolly get retained in secondary three .
2. i'll be grounded .
3. i won't get a new phone .
4. i will not get back my ipod till i show improvements .

and all of the above ..
sucks .

so people out there who is nice ,
cross fingers for me and hope that i do well in my exams .
but if i really do well , then it will prove that miracles happen .
LOL .

i'll end here . bye ! (:

2009-09-23T00:47:00.000-07:00

blog officially dead .
i don't think anyone bothers coming here anymore .
cuz i always take such long time blogging .
gonna delete this blog one day .
when i feel like it .
then create another one no one knows .
then i could write all my secrets in the blog and no one will ever know . *smirks*
LOL . just kidding . when i delete i think i'll create another one so people who wants to read my blog can ask directly from me .
but i don't think anyone will be reading this post of mine ,
so i'm probably talking about myself .
but whatevers .
i don't give a damn man . (:

gambette for exams !
even though i know i'm gonna flunk everything though ..
everything will be on fire ( like what mr shafee always say) and i sure hope that all my papers will literally catch fire , and then there won't be anymore exams . yay !
or maybe someone would be kind enough to set our school on fire . haha .

will end here .
goodbye . (:

2009-08-19T02:26:00.000-07:00

Finally back to blogging .
guess it's dead for a longggggg time .
haha .
this posting thingy is weird .
white background with things jumbled everywhere .
yikes .
anyway , common test period !
tomorrow last paper .
e maths .
don't give a damn anymore .
flunk all my other tests already .
doesn't really make anymore difference i guess .
numbness .
sigh .

quote of the day:
it's not gonna matter how many breaths you take , but how many moments took your breath away <3

2009-06-13T20:40:00.000-07:00

alrights , it's like so long since i posted .
so here i am again .

bought new specs yesterday .
finally , don't have to remain with my ugly old spec :D

i wanna ipod touch .
hope mum comes to my blog and sees this .
hahhs .
if she doesn't , it's okay ,
cause i have hinted her so many times already .
hahhs .

alrights , ending here :D

2009-06-05T23:21:00.000-07:00

i am back , to upload the pics .
i have only a few though .
awws .

anw , enjoy .

this is zhiyou , aka the gay who <3 daniel

YCA ! they are totally awesome :D

Our banner :D

me and jing kai :D

two bimbos . l0ls . one in my hair band and the other in my hairclip .

and jingkai claims that the feeling of wearing a hair band is good . hahhs .

one of the pics drawn by the scandalous lyrae .
featuring : alicia :D

LYRAE ! love them totally !

yang yang >3 biqi
another scandalous pic .

Benji and daniel being forfeited .

don't they look so lovely ?
zhiyou must be utterly jealous :D

Benji ! this pic taken by kiki secretly . lols

is this a female or male ?

hmm .
think it's a female ? then you are wrong .

this is benji !

8 points contact . aww . are you jealous that the guys are oh-so-close ?

that's all the pics i have :D

2009-06-05T21:50:00.000-07:00

i am finally back !
alrights , trying to scrap off my habit of twitting .
it's like i have to retype almost all my words cause i keep twitting it . -.-

anyway , this whole week didn't have much time to use the computer cause i went to hwa chong for the 15th student leaders' convention .
had great fun there .
all of us went there without knowing each other ,
but left as best friends .

first day was basically ice breaking and orientation games .
the main idea of this was to get to know our faculty mumbers better .
the game that i had the greatest impression was the one whereby we had to use our mouth to source for sweets in the flour .
got the whole face full of flour and we got to taste free flour .
-blech-
try tasting flour . *shudders*

second and third day was the more boring part of the SLC .
we had our faculty meeting to write out our action plan , then a youth council meeting .
at the youth council meeting , each of the different facs were like attacking one another , trying to scrap of some parts of their action plan .
even though it was harsh at first , we got the best action plan in the end !
YCA rocks totally !

then last dae ( awww )
grand finale .
i swear , our performance was nice ,
but we did not have the chance to perform till the end .
what a waste !
it's like when 6mins is over , they totally switch of the lights on the stage .
that's like , wth .
oh , nvm .
at least we had a wonderful time .
then at the end of the finale , balloons were everywhere .
my worst fear . x.x
lots of people were bursting it .
okay , the following's gonna be embrassing .
i cred . -.-
yeah .
don't think many people saw it bahs .
so . whew .

then went back to classroom .
readd the scandalous report on lyrae .
some parts were damn funny .
and i became the gossiper . -.-

hahhs .
overall , 15th SLC is totally awesome !

2009-05-25T04:24:00.000-07:00

finally updatedd agaiin .

iie swear , iie ain't g0nna t0uchh a ball00n iin my life again .
it's freakiing scaryy cans .
iie hate ball00ns .
l0ls .
x.x

h0pe the seni0rs like the farewell party .
th0ugh there were s0me err0rs here and there .
c0s humans ain't perfect .
s0 yeapps .
anw are the c00kiies nice ? 0.o

2009-05-21T05:11:00.001-07:00

arghhs .
flunkk all my subjects .
failed by bi0l0gy .
aced my chemistry ,
cause i 0nly did paper one , mcq .
hahhs
the rest ..
all b4 , thn combined humanities c5 .
suckky bahhs .
waddeva .

stressedd lahhs .
thought exams 0ver liia0x can relax .
thn s0 manyy thiings t0 d0 sehhs .
urghhs .
waddeva luhhs .
buhhbye .

2009-05-16T02:53:00.000-07:00

weeeeeeeeeeee !
iie am finally backk .

anw , chih chieh , iie changedd euur liinkyy lerhhs .
cnt use c0m lerhh , will update again .
see yah !

2009-04-30T00:59:00.000-07:00

hey there .
i won't be using computer till after exams .
no more twitting till after exams , 'cause i am afraid i might put in slangs into my exams sheet .
mr liang owes us pizza !
hahhs .
and oh yeah .
everytime say we never wait for her , did she ask us to wait for her in the first place . make us look as if we were the "bad guys"
sucks man .

okays .
nothing much to post already .
so here's an essay which i helped my cousin write .
she had so many more assignments to complete so i decided to help her with her essay since i had nothing much to do .
enjoy ~

In this room, is filled with people in black clothing. Jackson once asked me what was my favourite colour, and my answer was black. He asked: “why not blue or pink?” I said black was the colour for me, and Jackson said he was the one for me. I am not sure if black was my colour anymore.

Everyone walked to the coffin, and sent Jackson off his last journey. Everyone but me. I cannot bear to see Jackson in a coffin. It will just make me cry once more. Everyone asked me if I was okay, but obviously, I am not. How could I be with my boyfriend in the coffin? It was all my fault. If I had not dared him to jump off the cliff, he would not be in there now.

Jackson came to our school around the mid of the year. He was bald and had a goatee. My friend said maybe he had an illness that made him lose his hair. And another friend said maybe he thought bald was sexy. Bald, on him,was sexy. There was once, during a school game, he sat somewhere behind me. Or rather that was what he told me. My friends went to get some snacks, and I remained to save our seats. That was when Jackson came to talk to me. “Hi, my name is Jackson.” He said. And I replied “I know. Everyone in your school knows your name.” He blushes and that makes him look really hot. “But what I want to know is your name.” That made me smile. “Want to go out some other time?” And that made my smile grew. This was how we got together.

I always had a liking to swimming. “I dare you to jump from the jumping platform” was what Jackson said. “But you know I am afraid of heights!” “and that is why I want you to do it”. And I did. After that, I dared him to place a fake lizard in a teacher’s pencil case and he dared me to do other things. This was a little game between us until I did something really stupid. We were at a place called heaven’s hideaway and there was a party going on. Jackson was the person who discovered this place and I said it was pretty much like heaven. And this was how this place got its name. “I dare you to jump off from this cliff.” I told Jackson, and within minutes, he was at that top of the cliff. I wanted to shout stop, but I was a second too late. He plunged down into the pool, but he did not emerge out of the surface. I wanted to jump into the pool to get Jackson, but I was rooted to the ground. A few guys went to bring Jackson out of the pool and laid him on the ground. His head had a wound and blood was streaming out profusely. We were at the hospital and Jackson was announced dead. That was how I lost Jackson.

I sat at the table, with his mum and brother. They keep telling me it is not my fault, but I know, deep in my heart, they are blaming me. I kept biting on the skin of my finger, a bad habit I promised Jackson I would change. But do I have to keep promises to a dead person? Jackson once promised me that he would never leave me. He broke his promise, so I could break mine.

After that, I went home to clean up and have a good rest. I was washing my face in the bathroom, and the atmosphere suddenly became cold. Then, I saw something else other than my reflections. Jackson. He was there for a split second. Afterwards, the temperature went back to normal again. I know Jackson was there, but I could not tell anyone. People will think that I am insane. I did not want to leave the house anymore. I wanted to be with Jackson.

Friends told me to go out, and my mum said that it would be better if I went out. I was good at home. I could be with Jackson at home. However, I do not feel happy being with the ghost Jackson. I could not touch him, hug him, or kiss him. I was making lemonade in the kitchen, and I remembered that there was once when I was eating a lemon cookie. Jackson told me that there was a piece of cookie at the corner of my lips. He kissed the corner of the lips and licked away the piece of lemon cookie. That was how comfortable I could be with him.

Mum has been pleading with me to go out with my friends, but I refused. I want to stay with Jackson. When I got into my room, there was a note left there. ‘I want Ava to go out with her friends. I want Ava to be happy.” And I know this is written by Jackson. I could feel Jackson follow me wherever I go. I sometimes hope that I did not have to live my life. I got frustrated and shouted at him “JACKSON. YOU HAVE TO GO! I CAN’T LIVE MY LIFE LIKE THIS!” Then, I saw a reflection of Jackson, a not-so-happy Jackson. “I will go. Only if you allow me to bring your guilt away, Ava.” I could hear a faint voice of Jackson. It was now I realise that Jackson has been here because he knew that I felt that I am the cause of his death.

I wrote a letter to my parents, saying that I will hang out with my friends, be more positive and signed off saying that I love them. I wanted to send the letter to them via post, as it would be more official. As I walked out to post my letter, I saw Jackson’s reflections in the glass windows. He was fading off, and he looked calmer, like the old Jackson I knew.

Days later, I was at the breakfast table and my parents smiled. They have received my letter. I want to listen to Jackson. Jackson wanted me to go out with my friends, Jackson wanted me to be happy.

here it is . hope you have enjoyed my essay .
p.s. if ervin was here , he'd definitely correct my english . hahahas .

2009-04-25T21:38:00.000-07:00

backk aqaiin .
dunchh thiink iie will postiing f0r a while c0s exams are c0miing yeahhs .
nnd iie failedd m0st 0f my tests .
s0 must w0rkk hardd lerhh lahhs .
if n0rt next year iie kena dem0tedd t0 n0rmal acad . -.-
sadd huhh .
s0 must jiia y0u ehh .
teehees .
endd here lerhhs .
byebye :D

2009-04-25T00:51:00.000-07:00

heyys .
backk aqaiin .
q0nna be a sh0rt p0st c0s my m0m ranting alr .
t0dae .
when amk hub .
walk b0ut 0ne h0ur plus c0s mum went f0r hair treatment .
thn .
dunn0e wadd t0 sae lerhhs
byebye :D

2009-04-21T04:27:00.000-07:00

it's funny how hell0 is 0rhwaes acc0mpaniied wiith g00dbyes .
it's funny how good memoriies can start to make you cry .
it's funny how forever never seem to really last.
it's funny how much you'd lose if you forget about your past .
it's funny how when you need someone they're never around .
it's funny how people change and think they are so much better .
it's funny how many lies can be packed in one 'love letter' .
it's funny how people forgive even though they can't forget .
it's funny how one night can contain so much regret .
it's funny how ironic life turns out to be .

but the funniest part of all , is that none of that is funny to me .

2009-04-21T03:05:00.000-07:00

backk aqaiin !
hahhs .
p0stiing f0r n0 0ne t0 see .
c0s n0 0ne qq0rt my url yet .
l0ls .

anw .
t0dae .
qq0rt the m0st interestiing chem less0n ever .
we playedd biing0 !
l0ls .
yeahh, that's the m0st interestiing .
c0s m0st 0f the tiime 0nlyy mr liang t0kiing .
can serii0usly fall asleep derhhs lahhs .
thiink iins0mnia pple can als0 sleep iin hiis less0n .
hahhs .

thn t0dae b0 dance .
c0s ms chan 0n mc bahhs .
s0 chnge t0 t0m0r0 .
that aiint s0 iinterestiing huhh ?
l0ls .

2009-04-20T03:56:00.000-07:00

heyys .
can update aqaiin .
teehees .

t0dae ,
ch0ke 0n muaiix piink d0lphiin siia .
c0me 0ut fr0m muaiix n0se .
damn qr0ss -.-

iie hate mathhs .
l0ls .
n0w gettiing chiim-er nnd chiim-er .
nnd miie ,
gettiing stupiid-er nnd stupiid-er .
siianz derhh lahhs .

kkaes .
endd here bahhs .
bye :D

2009-04-17T02:03:00.000-07:00

w00h00 !
bl0g re0penedd .
happy happy .
l0ls .
l0nqq tiime b0 bl0g liia0x n0w damn shii0k .
hahhs .

anw .
0ur syf qq0rt siilver .
yeahhs .

t0dayy ,
qq0rt chem .
startedd 0n the new chapter: the mole .
c0nfusiing siia .
he keep explaiiniing budd iie still blankk derhhs .
dunchh understandd a single thiing .
x.x

sadded .
qtq lerhhs .
byebye .